I always knew the dog would die, probably no later than 2015. I never realized she'd get old first. But then, she got old. And at first I was like "that's ok, she's my beloved, I will take care of her forever." But I never realized that she wouldn't just get old, she'd get sick, too. Now she's old AND sick and I'm like "that's ok, she's my beloved, I will take care of her forever." But now I'm starting to wonder, how long is this going to go on? And how much worse is it going to get? Is she suffering? How much is she going to suffer before she dies? And is it enough to love her? Why is there nothing I can do? And why does she look so alone?